There’s much that’s been happening in my personal life + my pregnancy lately that has put a hold on a few things & shifted my path for this year. I know it’s been months since I’ve last published something on here. To be honest, I wasn’t sure when I’d have the desire to post again. However, recently I felt compelled to bring awareness to this topic. I knew I could possibly help someone else if I shared my experience because there’s always several other mama’s that may be experiencing a similar situation as well. I am no mental health specialist or counselor so I can’t tell you what route is best for your healing, but I can share with you my story & the path I’ve decided to take. Hopefully, you’ll feel inspired to discover/continue your treatment plan as well.
The Big News
The moment I found out I was pregnant, intense happiness flowed through my body and soul. The first thing I did was call my husband. There was no way I could hold in the excitement until he got home from work. In my mind, everything felt euphoric. I played a vision of the future months to come; I’d be continuing my fitness routine throughout my 1st and 2nd trimester, being at ease with my health, I’d show off my bump, feeling pretty & fabulous. Everything seemed well played out in my mind. Oh, but I was wrong.
I’ve never had an emotionally stable upbringing, especially not growing up. However, the first time depression and anxiety truly defeated me was during pregnancy #1. It was unexpected, moved out of state, and being away from everything and everyone I knew took a serious toll on my well being. Even though I was feeling this way for months, it never occurred to me to get “clinically assessed” or “diagnosed”. Not until 2 years later. A few days after I found out I was expecting my next baby to be exact. An overwhelming sadness and loss of interest for everything overcame me. No longer did I feel the immense joy of creating another life, I completely stopped working out, and all my positive energy was no longer in sight. The horrid morning sickness didn’t help any either. I was confused, I was angry, I was exhausted.
But I knew I wouldn’t let myself go through this again.
I decided to finally seek professional help. A couple of months ago I was clinically diagnosed with depression and anxiety, which was rooted from childhood. My mental health journey hasn’t been the most stable or successful yet, but after recognizing my health condition with a professional I’ve taken matters into my own hands. I’m not against medication, whatever helps you keep it under control is best, but my goal is to heal & manage anxiety/depression naturally. I am also open to receiving psychological therapy, which I plan on pursing very soon.
Becoming more spiritually grounded and consuming the minerals+nutrition my body needs is what I’ve been doing so far. This has decreased the negativity, elevated my energy, but I have a while until I’m fully in control over my emotional & mental stability.
The first step to finding a treatment plan is to establish a strong support system. With the help of my husband, my parents, and a couple close friends I have found it a less bit stressful to go through. Unfortunately, I know some may not have anyone for support nearby, but THERE IS ALWAYS SUPPORT OUT THERE. You’re NEVER truly alone. Surround yourself with people who’ll uplift you, encourage you, and love you no matter what.
Next, don’t be afraid of professional help (therapy/counseling). The best thing you can do for yourself is to get as much help as you can. Therapists and specialists can serve as great tools to get you to work through your demons.
Additionally, you can try holistic or natural healing too. Find different cleanses online that best work for you, research the vitamins your body may be lacking, eat cleaner, make fitness part of your lifestyle. Try breathing exercises, meditation, or even yoga. Balancing your energy points (chakras) through Reiki or acupuncture regularly can help too.
Remember you’re not the one to blame for these problems either, once you are aware of your condition and accept it that is half way through the battle already. Don’t feel ashamed or feel weak because of anxiety or depression, it is never your fault. These conditions are actually is more common than you’d think.
Symptoms For Antenatal Depression
Depression during pregnancy is called antenatal depression. You may have already been battling depression or anxiety prior to pregnancy. However, studies show it can be highly triggered or increased by sudden and intense hormonal changes.
The following are a list I found of symptoms that may arouse if you’re suffering from depression, some of which I felt/still feel as well:
- Persistent feelings of sadness
- Lack of interest in hobbies and other favorite activities
- Difficulty concentrating and making decisions
- Persistent feelings of anxiety and anxious thoughts
- More irritable and impatient than usual
- Anxiety about the pregnancy and delivery
- A sense that nothing seems enjoyable or fun anymore, including the pregnancy
- Constant fear of bad things happening
- Thoughts of death or suicide
You can also take a FREE depression and anxiety screening online prior to seeking help too.
I’m now about 17 weeks pregnant and am feeling better. It’s been a wild ride so far and I know the remainder of my pregnancy may not be anxiety-free or completely satisfying, but I am striving to improve my health and do what’s best for me so I can be the best for my family.
Have you been depressed or experienced bad anxiety during pregnancy? If so, how did you cope? Thanks for reading along friends, sending you all positive energy & best of luck on your mental health journey! xx